Whew! 2012 has been a doozy! Not even halfway through it, and it seems any and everything that shaped my childhood has withered away. If I start listing, I will regrettably miss someone, so I will refrain.
Most heartbreaking was my friend Anthoney Bills. I had always teased him that his name had MY name in it, so we were destined to marry. I am sure I proposed five times, three times he accepted (probably to hush my rambling, lol)
I wondered if he was ready, if he felt his final days coming and accepted them peacefully? I wondered if he'd really patronize me enough to have married me, lol. I wonder, and wonder then wonder a little more.
Well, don't wonder about ME!
If I should die before I wake, I'm okay with it. Really I am.
Whenever I blow-dry my hair, I comb it forward into a very inappropriately long mohawk that drapes over one eye, then I begin to recite emo poetry. No matter what the lines read, the final line is always "The Dead... are the Lucky Ones". My kid gets a kick out of that, lol.
Eventually I realized there may be some truth to that. The world is cruel. There are beautiful times here, but they are almost always followed by some trials. It makes us who we are.
But, the thought of eternal rest in Heaven? I believe in it! And the people there... from family, to friends and musicians? Everybody whose somebody is there, and I ain't scared to go!
Side Note: Anyone who knows me, knows I want "Can You Feel It" by the Jacksons played. Get the instrumental or an organ version, but I want it. And anybody who wears black gets sent home. I like colors. Don't rock the rainbow, people will get the wrong idea, lol... but yeah, it had better be a celebration!
Don't be sad, because I won't be, and wouldn't want YOU to be.
That is all! ;)
